People always see me like I’m having unlimited patience. Because I always look calm. But there’s actually a reason behind. Back then, there’s this man reminded me that I need to be careful with my words after I chose not to open my third eye and used it for a greater good. I don’t want to make it superstitious but every word that comes out from my mouth when I’m angry, it becomes real. That’s what happened to two guys I had a relationship with.
The first guy whom I met online and said he was single but actually had a wife, I told him that I hope his wife found out, divorced him and his life became miserable. 5 years later, I got something like a whisper in my ear that said I needed to know about his life update and I found out that his wife got him divorced. In an offical statement, there was a paragraph stated that he suffered from some kind of sexual disfunction. I was a bit surprised but I was glad his wife found out and I looked at her life now, she’s happy.
The second guy whom I also met online, the pathological liar who lied about everything in his life, including his age, when I cut him off I said to him I hope your life got miserable financially, because he was using a lot of my money he said he was going to give back. A year later my friend told me that his father’s business got bankrupt so his life was indeed miserable he even downgraded his phone from the latest iPhone to older model. He did me dirty so that’s clearly on him.
Now, I’m actually afraid. I know I’m angry right now but I don’t want to say something that makes me regret my words later. That’s why I always stay calm. Every time I feel like I’m about to explode, I take a deep inhale.
But, I don’t know if I can hold it or not.